Brakston's phone call

How can I be eagerly anticipating an event and dreading it at the same time?

I get to talk to Brakston tomorrow for my Mother's Day phone call. I am happy about that. People always tell me it's the best phone call in the world. So, why am I dreading it?

1) I did get to talk to him at the airport 6 weeks ago and what I learned then is that it made me miss him so much more. I had a very hard time for several days after the call. I am not looking forward to going through that again.

2) It will be the last time I get to talk to him for the next 7 1/2 months. That is too long to even begin contemplating so I already don't want the phone call to be over because then it's a long time until the next one.

3) Brakston's mission president has a 30-minute time limit which is way too short! I am dying at the thought of all 6 of us trying to fit our conversations into one 30-minute phone call. I seriously considered telling everyone else that it is Mother's Day (MY day) and they could each have 1 minute and I get the remaining 25. However, I can't do that to the rest of my family. Lately, Alec has been talking almost non-stop about how much he loves his brother. I know McKayla is really missing him and needs to be able to talk to him, and of course, Kevin doesn't get a Father's Day call.

All of that said, I would not miss my phone call for the world! I will talk to Brakston and he will probably make me laugh (which I dearly miss). Then, I will hang up and cry. Oh well. At least I've got my list ready. I've been listing what to talk about for a week or two so I don't forget anything important.